Naive

Is it possible that a person could let another cling to hope of a romantic relationship for the purpose of maintaining a sexual relationship and nothing else? That they have made up their minds and have absolutely no intention of pursuing anything further than a booty call with you but just don't want to let you know because then they'll lose the sex? Could people really be that callous?

Am I wrong to give the benefit of the doubt? To believe the excuses they give are legit and if it weren't for those circumstances that they would be with you? That they actually do have feelings for you? And genuinely don't want to let you go because they would actually feel the loss?

Could someone's life be so complicated that they would for-go love completely? It seems not likely when that same person at the beginning of the relationship isn't letting these "issues" hold them back and is showing it not only in the things they openly say to you but in their actions as well and now it's just too complicated to be around and they couldn't be more aloof or vague if they worked for the CIA. Am I answering my own questions but not accepting the answers?

He knows that I can't let him go. He knows that I can't move on, that I can't "accept the fact that our paths will never entwine" and when I ask him "do I need to accept it?" He just answers "I don't know". What the hell does that mean?!

Can he be cruel enough to allow me to stay in limbo as long as he gets what he wants? And if he is capable is capable of such cruelty is this really someone I want to be associated with, to have touching me and IN me? But if he is not and I am wrong, would he, could he ever has the balls to tell me so? Two years of not getting any confirmations of anything negative or positive should be answer enough.

If I let go, I mean really let go… no chatting, no booty calls, nothing. Will he come to his senses and try… I mean really, really try…. balls to walls effort, to get me back? I honestly don't think he will. If I let go, he will let me go without giving it a second thought. And he'll take the cowards' way out by basically sit back on his laurels saying "if that's what you want" …and take absolutely no responsibility for his part.

How ignorant do I sound?

(Update: 4/9/10 this person is no longer in my life & yes I was a dumb-ass to put up w/ his b.s. and now I have what i deserve. Someone that loves, respects & treats me like the sun rises & sets w/ me)